Sin or Suffering | Ephesians | Jackie Hill Perry, Jasmine Holmes, Melissa Kruger | Word First

let me ask this question I think a lot of times it's either our sin that makes we think think we're not loved or our suffering that makes us think we're not loved which one for you is a time where you're like I'm doubting that you love me is it when you see your sin and you're like how can you love me or is it when you're suffering and you you might say these circumstances make me feel like you don't love me it's definitely sin for me or just awareness of my Perfections and projecting the way I view myself onto how God must view me it's like like there was a season where um I kept struggling with a particular thing and to deal with the struggle I kept referring to myself as trash I was like you're just trash like that's why you do that like you're just trash and I remember like probably 6 months of me persistently shaming myself I was thinking the shame would help ify me like I thought that would be a motivator and I I really s the Lord speak to me and he was like where in the Bible have I ever refer to you as trash that's not how I talk about my children you know and so I do think that we have to continue to get outside of ourselves to consider the scriptures and allow that to influence the way we see ourselves when we're suffering and when we're struggling with sin well it actually keeps you from the remedy yeah because if you're like I'm such a siner I'm trash God doesn't want to be near me I'm not going to go to him and ask for the very help I need right right which is also I think a tactic of the evil one literally was just thinking that I was like and I bet Satan's really happy whenever that happens he's the accuser of the Brethren and so some of some of the thinking has a a different Source even outside of ourselves yes cuz I think I struggle most in the suffering kind of yeah I mean as though I mean it's embarrassing to even admit as though God needs to prove anym to me that he loves me he's kind of like do you remember what my my pal you know these are nail scarred hands he died this I know but you know you go through day-to-day life and you feel like why is this I I'm embarrassed how quickly I can be shocked by suffering because the Bible tells me all the time yeah kind of now strange that you know this is what's going to happen but it hits you and you're like first I ask what did I do wrong why am I suffering and then I'm like do you love me and you I mean I'm I'm so horrified by that thought that then I can even think oh I've got to I've got to get myself right before I go to God rather than just say Lord I'm I'm doubting I mean the psalmist did that you know like why do you stand so far off God you know why are you slow to remedy this they cried out to them I mean the Psalms are this beautiful picture of whatever circumstance you're in just go to God rather than wait for the circumstance to end wait for the sin to be defeated that's exactly what Satan wants to do is divide us from the very power source that we have MH [Music]